i was pleasantly surprised with how i was feeling this morning, minutes after i woke up at 5am. i was unusually feeling light, joyful even, very much unlike the past mornings. whereas before i would drag my feet to wash up my face before i go to our morning mass, this morning i had the energy to even fold my blanket and fix my bed, then go straight to bath and enjoy every minute of my shower. then i realized, yes, today's mama's birthday.
i knew that today's going to be different. it still feels different at this moment, 10 minutes before 6pm. even if i missed the answer to our epistemology exam this morning. even if i still have the term paper i am slowly starting to write and am hoping to finish by tonight. even if there's still that memory of defeat a couple of days ago, and there's that great challenge to find meaningful and effective means to carry on the fight for truth.
this feeling of lightness, of calm, i welcome very much, and am very grateful for.
i should be the one giving Her a gift.